Do I sound like I don't know what I want?
Actually...
I know exactly what I want to do/have in life.
But somehow, others always think that I don't... I seem to be bumming around and not doing much. But in actual fact, I am too busy... most of the time, I've too much at hand for me to handle... Too busy trying to earn a living, while trying to balance the desire of doing things that are meaningful and beneficial to my future and the people that came brushing through my brief life...
I believe that there's 2 ganeral path that people tend to take in Singapore - the sure and safe route and the other is the uneven and challenging route.
Right from the start, I have never thought that I will be walking in the easier route. I know what is to come and am somewhat prepared for the hard road ahead. I know that I will be poor all my life but I'll be richer in another sense... For I can never imagine myself doing some monotonus activity over and over again just to satisfy the sole motivation of having more money. I can't.
And I really can't bring myself to ignore the insanity of mankind and treatment that we're giving to the very planet that marks our own exsistance. How can I remain calm and ignorantly believe that nothing's wrong when thousands of people have died due to our selfishness and frivolity to the obvious signs and callings from Her...
However, I'm blessed and happy to know that along this treacherous and triesome road, I have met alot more people that are like me. People that are facing the exact same problems as I am for not taking the "good route to stablity". Along the way, lots of people whom I've worked with even extended their offer to have me working for them. And that gave me the confidence as well as a form of assurance that I've been doing a good job.
Again it is all about what I want in life.. What do I want to be known as - a trainer, facilitator, diver, guide, artist, etc? Everyone needs an identity, or an entity to have that sense of belong. Perhaps even a sense of being.
Some friends of mine are even thinking about starting businesses... G. , LC, Moo. , GL, Hj and they have all asked me if I would like to be part of them... Be it social enterprises, outdoor education, marine, teaching... I'm truly hornoured! However, no matter how much my heart desires to take up them all, I have to let go of some, so as not to compromise my person rule of living - to live life colourfully meaningful... To enjoy and be happy with the work that I do... Understand what I mean? ...
Working towards my dream...
The dream of realising my desires...
Real enough to touch and to hold...
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